December 21, 2007

write now

writing comedy is hard
all u have to do is
take what you know
your observations
your truth

then u spin or whatever
to make it universally understood
time and time again
advice i've received
from those i see
as seasoned pros

it's easier when your unknown - less access to ur truth
bullshit

because all i know right now is not funny
loneliness
isolation
depression
lack of drive
..motivation
..direction

despair dare i say
is what is known
2 me
right now

long awaited check arrived
last week - a hold
banks make no sense to me
almost 3k - a lot of dough
in my world

paycheck for some random whatever
long past due - it'll clear in 7 days
i thought as i left the bank
angry i did not receive a cashiers check
per my request

it's the holiday season - i'm not working
so i spent...like it would be there
funds on the way - no need to worry
yesterday the check cleared
2day my bank just called
it bounced

and i'm in the hold a whopping 200 bucks
happy merry fucking christmas to me
a big fat negative red says boa.com
although my savings account oddly has
$14.27

taking money out of my 'portfolio'
pathetic to even call it that
would cost me more than i'd gain
when this mess gets sorted out
at the start of the new year

so here i sit - trying to find my truth
thinking to myself thank god
groceries, dry cleaning, & pharmacy
were all on my to do yesterday

wishing i hadn't gone out for a drink
with friends last night
as i wasn't feeling it
and now that $20 cash
makes my money drawer
emptier

i think i got something...