a date

tonite
i go on a date
1st in a while
a long while

why is this so weird
2 me
it's just drinks
maybe the beach
relax, chill

dating is scarey
some strange person
maybe there's a chance
the odds are against u
from the get go

courting rituals in society
so strange now a days
with online this
and instant message that
face 2 face becomes intimidating
the anti-establishment
if that makes sense
does to me

i saw jesus camp
all i can say is
wow...what the fuck
yes i grew up around these people
but i guess somehow
in my mind
i rationalized
justified them
far, far away
out of existance

haggard now the subject of scandal
crystal meth, gay prostitutes
what else is new
the next target
dobson

my mom used 2 force him upon us
i always had an incling the man
was a freak -- not even
going to dignify him with
the g word

secretly
deep inside
i'm grinning
big time

time to get ready
wish me luck
first base here i come
7th grade all over again