insane week

already titled my email
and yet haven't writen
but it seemed 2 true
to me...it is wed
fyi

today my 2nd day
this week working
still seems not right
to say i'm working
again

not that i'm complaining
it needed to happen
but for so long i've been
on my own time schedule
working, making cash
yes
but my hours

i hadn't worked in tv
for almost 3 years
except 1 or 2 lil spots
till last week
they seemd 2 like it
whatever

last week of the quarter
i'm going to confess
i split water on my mac
if my dad reads this site
i'm fucked 4 years to come
yes 3x now i've done it
all different computers
uggg i annoy myself
sometimes

it's rigged, not near fixed
at a minor out of pocket $
major memory, tech speak
lost most my saved shit...99%
writing, papers, nothing 2 serious
i couldn't all redo just b4
time was too late

today i bought a collective holiday gift
4 all

redesign of an old idea
that most hadn't seen
a vintage, collectors version
of an old design
4 an my other site
now funny, stupid, me
with this one instead
whatever

i'll have a dozen of them left 2
with nothing 2 do with
except collect dust
it was the max i could stretch
this year 2 give to all i feel i must
bullshit huh

actually they're cute
i think
clever to, i think
fuck people can use them 2 clean
or workout with
or wear them daily
it's the thought
right

ive put a lot of energy into
the design today 2 perfection
and now wasting more on this
my silling little email
2 the world wide web
not that i don't love all 12 of u
who read regularly

those who still come back
from non english nations
god bless
but do u know
what i'm saying

i digress further
back to work now
haha my life's a joke
yet i have stress
what the fuck ever

bye 2 my people
of whom i love all