look what the cat drug in...

I want one of those doogie hawser looking journaling programs. At first was going to do video journaling. Not seeing your face occasionally (even when its hidden) after months and months -- Not such a good thing. No-one's been here so this will do.

I'm watching the suberbowl. I keep missing touchdowns. Random boring parts I catch. Then I feel lost that the score is up by 7 all of a sudden. foot ball i've watched a lot of lately, not my 1st choice mind you.

yet still am only naturally drawn to the boring stuff. I'm learning the truth works best for me in my life... and I recommend it despite the consequences.

i've been out of my meadow for about ten days. i'm finally starting to feel normal. getting back after such a long journey... ending in a residence in Wickenburg, AZ.

It was as if after half of my first night back, i woke up and it was if I mainlined some of the strongest drug cocktails ever over and over; and yet once i had missed. It is that hit that I can't keep out of my mind.

And now. I'm awake now -- i think.