tonight was a night
a deep conversation
with a very good friend
going thru the shit
i maintained my boundries
what a suprise
i finished a paper
on anxiety and panic attacks
for psychopharmacology
i did it justice i believe
we'll see what victor says
watched go -- great flick
katie holmes pre auditing
she is so fuckin' cute
a total mary-kate houseman
loves it
watching clueless classic
cher with the gum on her finger
it does not say rsvp on the constitution
my childhood exasperated
loves it
life is a trip
johnny t
kissing a man
probally a friend
a cousin
gotta call jonathan
see what the deal is
why do we freak
about nothing
he is giving a guy a distant peck
and we all scream GAY
god damn it people
get a freakin' life
heading to d-town
in less than a week
seriously the blogging
will be insane
while i'm there
trust me
stay tuned
love ya all
my loyal readers
all 2 of you
peace out
scottiscool
August 31, 2006
August 28, 2006
When the Levees Broke...Spike Lee doc
It's been nearly a year since Hurricane Katrina ripped through New Orleans and the Gulf Coast. This weekend, AP reported (and this one's a shocker folks) that "the federal government has proven slow and unreliable in keeping the president's promises" to supply aid to the region.
For example, NPR reports that the home of 74-year-old Ethel Williams, which Bush promised in an April 2006 photo-op would be rebuilt, still sits untouched. Says Williams: "[W]e all disappointed because nothing’s been done."
Is anyone surprised?
Tonight, the first part of Spike Lee's documentary, When the Levees Broke: A Requiem in Four Acts, premieres on HBO from 9-11. The second part airs tomorrow evening. In it, Lee reports on the city of New Orleans and key figures surrounding the government's inept response to the natural disaster. Some, like Ray Nagin and Louisiana Gov. Kathleen Babineaux Blanco, talk. Others, like Homeland Security Chief and Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice, wouldn't. La Times writer Patrick Goldstein notes that Lee goes after Rice with particular interest ("When you're going to buy shoes while people are standing on the rooftops, waving brooms, you're part of the problem...").
Said Lee: "I just hope people come away from this film realizing this disaster didn't just happen to dumb-ass people who wanted to live below sea level. This was about the choices of our government. The National Guard was in Iraq, not in New Orleans."
The LA Times reports that Lee is not too favorable toward Mayor Ray Nagin either: "Even though Lee is often critical of Nagin, the film largely portrays him as an irrepressible New Orleans politico, especially when he recounts taking his first post-Katrina shower on Bush's plush Air Force One, which he describes as the ultimate 'pimp mobile.'"
Nagin recently slammed the Feds at a meeting of the National Association of Black Journalists in Indianapolis:
"Very little of those dollars have gotten to the local governments or to the people themselves. We are being strangled, and they're using the money to set local policies to try to take control of the city to do things that they had in mind all along, and that's to shrink the footprint, get a bunch of developers in the city, and try to do things in a different way. We're not going to let that happen. They're going to give us our money, and we're going to rebuild this city."
So what does Labor Day hold in store for us this year? Last year, while watching the parade of reactions on national news to the lack of movement from our government, it was hard to believe what we were seeing. A city being virtually ignored, left to die. A year later there are no bodies left sitting outside the Superdome but that city must still stink of tragedy.
kendra from girls next door
i met her a playboy party, 2x actually she's the 'sporty playmate'
she couldn't be more uhh how to describe this playboy model
sweet and um bubbly not a mean bone in this chick's body
but this shit i love, love, love it
4 humorafter the bennett drama
i guess this is from here myspace or something....read on....
My first rap video
Current mood: pissed off
I made a BAD MISTAKE when i agreed to be in a music video with EMINEM!! Why would i think doin my first music video with Eminem would be soooo tight?? i have no idea why cuz i never liked him in the first place but getting the so called opportunity was something i wouldnt pass up which was a bad mistake hahaha!!
The reason for me doing the video wasnt for the money, it was to make all my fans happy that i finally did a rap video cuz we all know how much i talk about how much i wanna be in one..right?? well im getting right to the point by saying it was probably the worst experience of my life!!
It all started off really cool when my best friend Brittany came up just to support me and cheer me on but not to mention her obsession over Eminem was also what made her drive all the way up for the day. When we first got there everyone like Akon came to say hi and greeted us. So i was so happy cuz it seemed like a start to a fun great day but a long fun great day huh huh!!
So about ten hours later(waiting in a cafeteria) i finally get my call to come in and shoot the scene with eminem. I was lookin the hottest of the hot(not conceided) and i was ready to go with my hair all done and everything, sooo happy. so we start by doing some warmups and i was dancing my ass off(literally) cuz it was my time to shine in front of David Banner, Lil Zane, and a couple other rappers and 100s of people.D eveyone was lovin my dancing and makin me feel good. Then Eminem walks in the room lookin like hes overdosing on drungs. We met and he was really nice to begin with and he was saying things like how he watches the show and how he got our issue of playboy and he wants me to sign it so i was very flattered and happy. Then we start doing our scene and everything is goin good until we go on a break. I went over to sit on the couch to rest a lil bit and i started talking to this really nice guy. Next, i look over and see Eminem walkin towards me. I smile and say "whats up?", he takes out a bottle of water and pours it all over me!!! There goes my makeup, there goes my hair, there goes my tears, and there goes my first rap video!!! Yes i charged at him to knock him out, only got him a lil bit though cuz of his big ass body guard that was in my way.
All i have to say about this is I feel way more sorry for him than i do hate him over this!! even though i yelled out probably 100000 times i hate him haha!! He has to act like a 5 yr old lil kid by pouring water on me to make himself feel better about his sad life. Everyone like Akon came over to make me feel better and that was really cool of them but inside i was dying!! i was so embarrassed and humiliated! So many people after that said they will never support him anymore and they will never listen to him anymore!! Hef felt sooo bad for me and was sooo pissed at Eminem, Hef HATES him now haha!!
So i lived and i learned right?? I will never do a rap video again unless its three 6 mafia, too short, bow wow, or nelly!!! Nelly was so nice to me by sending me a letter along with an autograhed jersey and pimpjuice the day after this eminem video so now im happy again haha!!
So all i can woder is why why why???? maybe he was loaded on drugs, maybe i reminded him of Kim, maybe he hates me..who knows!! all i know is i didnt do anything to him to make him do this to me. So im movin on with my life and putting this in the past but please dont buy any music from him anymore hahahahaa jk!! love u all and thanks for watching the show and listening to my sad story haha!! Peace
KDUB
she couldn't be more uhh how to describe this playboy model
sweet and um bubbly not a mean bone in this chick's body
but this shit i love, love, love it
4 humorafter the bennett drama
i guess this is from here myspace or something....read on....
My first rap video
Current mood: pissed off
I made a BAD MISTAKE when i agreed to be in a music video with EMINEM!! Why would i think doin my first music video with Eminem would be soooo tight?? i have no idea why cuz i never liked him in the first place but getting the so called opportunity was something i wouldnt pass up which was a bad mistake hahaha!!
The reason for me doing the video wasnt for the money, it was to make all my fans happy that i finally did a rap video cuz we all know how much i talk about how much i wanna be in one..right?? well im getting right to the point by saying it was probably the worst experience of my life!!
It all started off really cool when my best friend Brittany came up just to support me and cheer me on but not to mention her obsession over Eminem was also what made her drive all the way up for the day. When we first got there everyone like Akon came to say hi and greeted us. So i was so happy cuz it seemed like a start to a fun great day but a long fun great day huh huh!!
So about ten hours later(waiting in a cafeteria) i finally get my call to come in and shoot the scene with eminem. I was lookin the hottest of the hot(not conceided) and i was ready to go with my hair all done and everything, sooo happy. so we start by doing some warmups and i was dancing my ass off(literally) cuz it was my time to shine in front of David Banner, Lil Zane, and a couple other rappers and 100s of people.D eveyone was lovin my dancing and makin me feel good. Then Eminem walks in the room lookin like hes overdosing on drungs. We met and he was really nice to begin with and he was saying things like how he watches the show and how he got our issue of playboy and he wants me to sign it so i was very flattered and happy. Then we start doing our scene and everything is goin good until we go on a break. I went over to sit on the couch to rest a lil bit and i started talking to this really nice guy. Next, i look over and see Eminem walkin towards me. I smile and say "whats up?", he takes out a bottle of water and pours it all over me!!! There goes my makeup, there goes my hair, there goes my tears, and there goes my first rap video!!! Yes i charged at him to knock him out, only got him a lil bit though cuz of his big ass body guard that was in my way.
All i have to say about this is I feel way more sorry for him than i do hate him over this!! even though i yelled out probably 100000 times i hate him haha!! He has to act like a 5 yr old lil kid by pouring water on me to make himself feel better about his sad life. Everyone like Akon came over to make me feel better and that was really cool of them but inside i was dying!! i was so embarrassed and humiliated! So many people after that said they will never support him anymore and they will never listen to him anymore!! Hef felt sooo bad for me and was sooo pissed at Eminem, Hef HATES him now haha!!
So i lived and i learned right?? I will never do a rap video again unless its three 6 mafia, too short, bow wow, or nelly!!! Nelly was so nice to me by sending me a letter along with an autograhed jersey and pimpjuice the day after this eminem video so now im happy again haha!!
So all i can woder is why why why???? maybe he was loaded on drugs, maybe i reminded him of Kim, maybe he hates me..who knows!! all i know is i didnt do anything to him to make him do this to me. So im movin on with my life and putting this in the past but please dont buy any music from him anymore hahahahaa jk!! love u all and thanks for watching the show and listening to my sad story haha!! Peace
KDUB
saw this one coming...
BOULDER, Colorado (CNN) -- Schoolteacher John Mark Karr will not be charged with the murder of 6-year-old beauty pageant competitor JonBenet Ramsey, Karr's attorney said Monday.
"The warrant on Mr. Karr has been dropped by the district attorney," public defender Seth Temin said outside the jail. "They are not proceeding with the case."
He said a hearing scheduled later Monday afternoon has been canceled.
Temin also said he was "deeply disturbed" that authorities in Boulder brought Karr from Thailand with what appears to have been scant evidence.
Colorado authorities have not commented on their decision not to pursue charges against the man named in a warrant alleging murder, kidnapping and sexual assault on a child.
But CNN's Denver affiliate, KUSA, reported that the DNA sample taken from Karr does not match DNA found on JonBenet's body. KUSA quoted two sources in a bulletin on its Web site.
KUSA reported that samples of Karr's saliva and hair were taken in Boulder after his arrival Thursday evening. Those samples were tested over the weekend by the Denver Police Department's crime lab.
Those tests ruled out Karr's DNA as the foreign DNA left on JonBenet's body when she was slain in December 1996, the station reported on its Web site.
CNN is working to independently confirm the report.
Karr still could face child pornography charges in California.
Earlier Monday, Karr's defense team requested that prosecutors hand over DNA evidence in the Ramsey case.
The 41-year-old suspect was being held in Boulder County Jail on suspicion of first-degree murder, first- and second-degree kidnapping, and sexual assault.
It was not immediately known whether he would be freed or transferred to California.
Karr was brought back last week to the United States from Bangkok, Thailand. He arrived in Colorado Thursday evening from California, where he skipped bail in 2001 after being charged in Sonoma County with five misdemeanor counts of possessing child pornography.
Karr appeared at a brief hearing in Los Angeles and waived extradition to Colorado. (Watch Patsy Ramsey's sister reveal what the family will do if Karr isn't guilty -- 4:11)
He told reporters in Thailand he was with JonBenet the night she died, and that her death was an accident. The child's beaten and strangled body was found December 26, 1996, in the basement of her family's Boulder home.
Autopsy results showed she had suffered a blow to the head and been strangled with a garrote tightened with a paintbrush handle.
After Karr's statements in Thailand, questions have surfaced as to whether the slight, soft-spoken man could have been involved in the grisly killing.
Earlier this year, Michael Tracey, a journalism professor at the University of Colorado, alerted authorities to e-mails he had been receiving from a person now believed to be Karr.
Tracey, who has produced a documentary about the Ramsey case, said there was something in the e-mails "that made me decide I had to try and do something." But he would not say just what prompted him to contact prosecutors.
A law enforcement official told CNN that Karr's e-mails to Tracey were initially innocuous but that the professor contacted authorities when they became "weird." The communications were eventually tracked to Thailand.
"The warrant on Mr. Karr has been dropped by the district attorney," public defender Seth Temin said outside the jail. "They are not proceeding with the case."
He said a hearing scheduled later Monday afternoon has been canceled.
Temin also said he was "deeply disturbed" that authorities in Boulder brought Karr from Thailand with what appears to have been scant evidence.
Colorado authorities have not commented on their decision not to pursue charges against the man named in a warrant alleging murder, kidnapping and sexual assault on a child.
But CNN's Denver affiliate, KUSA, reported that the DNA sample taken from Karr does not match DNA found on JonBenet's body. KUSA quoted two sources in a bulletin on its Web site.
KUSA reported that samples of Karr's saliva and hair were taken in Boulder after his arrival Thursday evening. Those samples were tested over the weekend by the Denver Police Department's crime lab.
Those tests ruled out Karr's DNA as the foreign DNA left on JonBenet's body when she was slain in December 1996, the station reported on its Web site.
CNN is working to independently confirm the report.
Karr still could face child pornography charges in California.
Earlier Monday, Karr's defense team requested that prosecutors hand over DNA evidence in the Ramsey case.
The 41-year-old suspect was being held in Boulder County Jail on suspicion of first-degree murder, first- and second-degree kidnapping, and sexual assault.
It was not immediately known whether he would be freed or transferred to California.
Karr was brought back last week to the United States from Bangkok, Thailand. He arrived in Colorado Thursday evening from California, where he skipped bail in 2001 after being charged in Sonoma County with five misdemeanor counts of possessing child pornography.
Karr appeared at a brief hearing in Los Angeles and waived extradition to Colorado. (Watch Patsy Ramsey's sister reveal what the family will do if Karr isn't guilty -- 4:11)
He told reporters in Thailand he was with JonBenet the night she died, and that her death was an accident. The child's beaten and strangled body was found December 26, 1996, in the basement of her family's Boulder home.
Autopsy results showed she had suffered a blow to the head and been strangled with a garrote tightened with a paintbrush handle.
After Karr's statements in Thailand, questions have surfaced as to whether the slight, soft-spoken man could have been involved in the grisly killing.
Earlier this year, Michael Tracey, a journalism professor at the University of Colorado, alerted authorities to e-mails he had been receiving from a person now believed to be Karr.
Tracey, who has produced a documentary about the Ramsey case, said there was something in the e-mails "that made me decide I had to try and do something." But he would not say just what prompted him to contact prosecutors.
A law enforcement official told CNN that Karr's e-mails to Tracey were initially innocuous but that the professor contacted authorities when they became "weird." The communications were eventually tracked to Thailand.
bush = failure DUH
go to google.com
type in "failure"
the 1st result
you will find
2 be the same
as i did
type in "failure"
the 1st result
you will find
2 be the same
as i did
August 26, 2006
more from our prez
"no body has ever suggested that the attack of september 11th were
order by iraq"
what the )(#$%*I#$)
from our president 8/21/06
"but a war is a not a time of joy"
he's a genius
what can i say
stand by our man
or impeach him
hell kill him
at this time
either one
will satisfy me
this man is a moron
a fake leader
elected thru
fraud
look @ that
people
August 25, 2006
gay people are the problem...
A local evangelist spoke with 10TV Thursday night after his son was arrested for possessing child pornography.
Zachary Daubenmire, recently hired to teach special education at Licking Heights High School, was out on bond Thursday after admitting to downloading video of young girls having sex with adult men onto a family computer.
Daubenmire was also a volunteer assistant football coach at Heath High School. But after the charges came about, he was let go.
His father, Dave Daubenmire, says what happened with his son could happen to any family.
The elder Daubenmire is well known locally for being sued by the American Civil Liberties Union for conducting prayers with players before football games at London High School. He is also a longtime Christian leader who has worked to teach others about the dangers of pornography.
"Its certainly an addiction this struck our son -- our 24 year old son -- who has never been to the principal's office in his life," Dave Daubenmire said.
His son was set to start teaching at Licking Heights High School this academic year. But Thursday night, the school district was calling for the younger Daubenmires resignation. And if he does not step down, board members indicate they plan to terminate him.
His father says his son would never hurt children.
You know what I'm going to say as a father: of course not. But ask the people who have been around him, the people he's coached with, the school system that he's worked with. He's a model guy.
The Licking County Sheriff's Office said the investigation started after a computer repair company contacted authorities saying they had found child pornography in the process of doing some repair work.
Investigators interviewed Daubenmire. They say he admitted to downloading the video clips and images and trading them with other people over the Internet.
Daubenmire's father hopes that what has happened to his family will help other families be more aware of the problems of child pornography.
"I tell people this: go home tonight and check your child's computer. Look into their files and hack into their files. It was in our home under our eyes," Dave Daubenmire said emotionally.
Zachary Daubenmire's father said he has not seen the pictures or the evidence. But regardless of what's next in his son's future, he plans to stand behind him.
Detectives indicated they do not believe he has committed any other crimes.
Zachary Daubenmire, recently hired to teach special education at Licking Heights High School, was out on bond Thursday after admitting to downloading video of young girls having sex with adult men onto a family computer.
Daubenmire was also a volunteer assistant football coach at Heath High School. But after the charges came about, he was let go.
His father, Dave Daubenmire, says what happened with his son could happen to any family.
The elder Daubenmire is well known locally for being sued by the American Civil Liberties Union for conducting prayers with players before football games at London High School. He is also a longtime Christian leader who has worked to teach others about the dangers of pornography.
"Its certainly an addiction this struck our son -- our 24 year old son -- who has never been to the principal's office in his life," Dave Daubenmire said.
His son was set to start teaching at Licking Heights High School this academic year. But Thursday night, the school district was calling for the younger Daubenmires resignation. And if he does not step down, board members indicate they plan to terminate him.
His father says his son would never hurt children.
You know what I'm going to say as a father: of course not. But ask the people who have been around him, the people he's coached with, the school system that he's worked with. He's a model guy.
The Licking County Sheriff's Office said the investigation started after a computer repair company contacted authorities saying they had found child pornography in the process of doing some repair work.
Investigators interviewed Daubenmire. They say he admitted to downloading the video clips and images and trading them with other people over the Internet.
Daubenmire's father hopes that what has happened to his family will help other families be more aware of the problems of child pornography.
"I tell people this: go home tonight and check your child's computer. Look into their files and hack into their files. It was in our home under our eyes," Dave Daubenmire said emotionally.
Zachary Daubenmire's father said he has not seen the pictures or the evidence. But regardless of what's next in his son's future, he plans to stand behind him.
Detectives indicated they do not believe he has committed any other crimes.
August 24, 2006
dorksville, usa
tonight just now
walking inside
after my friend
dropped me off
gave me a ride
from school 2 home
i have such awesome friends
i'm walking the secret path
into the building
behind the book store
i see her -- wanda sykes
one of america's funniest females
i love, love, love her
she's on the phone
or doing pretending 2 be
as not to be bothered
my inner dialogue
you have to say something
do something
show her your appreciation
and as i pass her
still unsure my actions
it just happened
i did the double gun
hand point salute
yes that double guns
and mouthed the words
"you're fucking hillarious"
she mouthed a "thank you"
all the while doing what i took
to be rolling her eyes
with her inner dialogue
being who is this crazy motherfucker
am i overthinking this
who knows
i'm a big dork
yes
but a happy big dork
tonight 4 sure
walking inside
after my friend
dropped me off
gave me a ride
from school 2 home
i have such awesome friends
i'm walking the secret path
into the building
behind the book store
i see her -- wanda sykes
one of america's funniest females
i love, love, love her
she's on the phone
or doing pretending 2 be
as not to be bothered
my inner dialogue
you have to say something
do something
show her your appreciation
and as i pass her
still unsure my actions
it just happened
i did the double gun
hand point salute
yes that double guns
and mouthed the words
"you're fucking hillarious"
she mouthed a "thank you"
all the while doing what i took
to be rolling her eyes
with her inner dialogue
being who is this crazy motherfucker
am i overthinking this
who knows
i'm a big dork
yes
but a happy big dork
tonight 4 sure
August 20, 2006
mel gibson dui deal
anyone else call foul play? this is FUCKING BULLSHIT!
*3 years probation (california mandate)
*Attend one year of AA meetings
*First four-and-a-half months he must attend five times a week.
*Rest of the year attend three times a week
*$1200 in fines and penalties
*$100 in restitution
*A public service announcement on the hazards of driving under the influence
*Volunteered to enter a rehab program immediately.
*Gibson pleaded no contest to the misdemeanor of driving with a .08 blood alcohol level or higher
*The misdemeanor count of driving under the influence was dismissed
*The infraction of driving with an open container of alcohol was also dismissed
****Under California law, Gibson will have his driver's license suspended for 90 days
on second thought....
SOMEONE GET MEL'S ATTORNEY'S NUMBER TO ME STAT
*3 years probation (california mandate)
*Attend one year of AA meetings
*First four-and-a-half months he must attend five times a week.
*Rest of the year attend three times a week
*$1200 in fines and penalties
*$100 in restitution
*A public service announcement on the hazards of driving under the influence
*Volunteered to enter a rehab program immediately.
*Gibson pleaded no contest to the misdemeanor of driving with a .08 blood alcohol level or higher
*The misdemeanor count of driving under the influence was dismissed
*The infraction of driving with an open container of alcohol was also dismissed
****Under California law, Gibson will have his driver's license suspended for 90 days
on second thought....
SOMEONE GET MEL'S ATTORNEY'S NUMBER TO ME STAT
moveon.org
i beg you
check it out
moveon.org
huricane katrina
relief efforts
2 the max
if your in nyc
take advantage
of the invite
i got in the mail
2 day
Thursday, August 24th. 7pm to 9pm. Doors open at 6:30pm.
Crobar, 530 W. 28th St. New York, NY 10001, between Tenth and Eleventh Avenues.
open bar 7 - 10pm
i don't know if you have to have a ticket
because i got one in the mail
i'm sure moveon.org
has the details
help new orleans out!
check it out
moveon.org
huricane katrina
relief efforts
2 the max
if your in nyc
take advantage
of the invite
i got in the mail
2 day
Thursday, August 24th. 7pm to 9pm. Doors open at 6:30pm.
Crobar, 530 W. 28th St. New York, NY 10001, between Tenth and Eleventh Avenues.
open bar 7 - 10pm
i don't know if you have to have a ticket
because i got one in the mail
i'm sure moveon.org
has the details
help new orleans out!
2 lives cut short & 1 forever changed
It was summer...July 1997
I remember the day vividly
My family was living in University Park
Part of the Park Cities, Highland Park
Population of about 5,000 residents
A small suberb of Dallas, TX
It was called "the bubble"
A reclusive neighborhood
Where the average house
Cost over half a million
A safe, family neighborhood
Kids were allowed outside
After dark, unsupervised
Rich Suburbia USA
I do not recall exactly what alerted us
Of the crowd gathering a block away
All the neighbors talked to each other
Word spread in seconds in the bubble
Anyway my dad and I were home alone
And both walked around the block
To see what all the hype was about
As soon as we rounded the corner
The crowd was visible, as was the police tape
I knew the house quite well
I used to babysit for the family who lived there
And had moved out a year or so before
I had no clue who had moved in
And how closely connected I would be
To the tragedy that occurred hours earlier
A suicide, maybe a murder
Was word on the streets
Not too unfamiliar
It was a rental house
A few years back, another rental
Directly behind our house
A woman known affectionately
In the 'hood as "the crazy lady"
Because she always thru out cool stuff
Like fully new, unused stuff
We loved trash can shopping
Behind her house
Anyway this lady, married, just had a baby
One night saw car lights thru her window
As the word on the street went
She killed herself and the baby
Allegedly thinking someone was after them
It was all the hype, no one knew them
And the 'parkies' as they were called
Loved the goss -- especially about things unknown
The house remained vacant for a year
Then was torn down, rebuilt, and sold
We returned home, pretty much unfazed
Unfazed compared to what soon was clear
Not two hours later, we were all home
My mom came and told us something happened
A VP at my dad's company is coming over
And we must stay upstairs and out of the way
Moments later the front door opened
The 3 brothers Taylor of course
Were peaking down, out of sight
At the entry hall, dying 2 know
My dad entered with a familiar man
A man way too familiar, to just be a work guy
Clutching a framed picture, beyond tears
It hit me, like a ton of bricks how I knew this man
I had babysat for his 2 kids the summer before
2 beautiful, crazy energetic kids at his condo
He was divorced and had them for the summer
Hired me to watch them while he worked days
All summer long I spent with them, a boy & girl
The boy was about 8 or 9, the girl 6 or 7
It was one of the most fun summers of my life
Not only because of the abundance of cash
In my young, never full pocket
But we would have so much fun
Everyday stuck in the condo
Doing practically nothing
Hours and hours of fun
Still the details were fuzzy as hell
And with my parents remained that way
For quite some time
Bits and pieces being leaked out
Over the next few days
The house around the corner
His ex-wife had rented
It was he who came to pick up the kids
That awful day in July where we all gathered
He who called 911 pleading, crying hysterically
Found his son first murdered, cuts from a knife
Unsure where his ex-wife and daughter were
How exactly the aftermath played out
Is still a mystery, and rightfully so I think now
Later the police found his ex-wife and daughter
Both dead from knife lacerations
Apparently blood was tracked all thru the home
According to the police chief, in the news paper
University Park averages 2-3 homicides a year
We found out -- much to all of the neighbors shock
This was the first of '97 lil' chiefy was quoted saying
How fucking insensitive I thought then, and now
Although he followed that up with a quote about
What a tragedy 4 all, UP hadn't seen anything like this b4
The Dallas Coroner ruled it a double murder-suicide
Due to "multiple sharp-force injuries"
My parents hid all the press, we couldn't watch TV
But I ended up finding it all eventually, some yrs later
In hindsight, I wish I hadn't read so much detail
Half a dozen suicide notes found all over the house
Transcripts of the 911 call, descriptions of the scene
Horrific, awful details no one should know
Especially someone close to those involved
The mourning father spent a lot of time at our house
Over the next week or so, the kids upstairs always
The adults downstairs doing god knows what
However even as a young kid, barely double digits
I could feel the horrible, dark, sad energy in the house
That never seemed to leave forever after
Not that future events within the family didn't help
To add to that potently awful feeling
Even friends commented about my house having
I was not allowed to go to the funeral, my moms orders
I was told seeing me was a constant reminder of the kids
The kids alive, happy, on and on so I did not go
Something to this day I often wonder if I had
Would I still be so immersed in this 10 year old incident
It took me years after when I'd go up to the office
To be able to go into my dad's colleague's office & say hello
I didn't want to trigger him or make him sadder than he already must be
I still think about him almost daily, the kids faces remain in my brain forever
Images so clear its as if it's their actual pictures are in front of me
I wonder what would have happened to them, what they would have become
They'd be out of high school now; moving onward and upward I'm sure
I think of their father equally often, so curious about how he is doing
My dad is a very stoic unemotional man -- u pick ur touchy topics with him
I think I recall years ago bringing up the subject and heard he was engaged
Trying to start over a new, I imagined
Since my dad's interest in the company were dissolved
And I doubt, but don't know, if he still keeps in touch
Nor would I dare bring this up -- I already have enough 2 struggle thru w/ him
But I have faith and hope that my powerful, positive thoughts
I'm constantly sending his way reach him successfully
And that he's has nothing but the best things in life
Going on for him now, as I know he'll never forget
That hot muggy July afternoon
And his two beautiful babies
Gone now forever
Sending out PEACE & LIGHT to all tonight...
I remember the day vividly
My family was living in University Park
Part of the Park Cities, Highland Park
Population of about 5,000 residents
A small suberb of Dallas, TX
It was called "the bubble"
A reclusive neighborhood
Where the average house
Cost over half a million
A safe, family neighborhood
Kids were allowed outside
After dark, unsupervised
Rich Suburbia USA
I do not recall exactly what alerted us
Of the crowd gathering a block away
All the neighbors talked to each other
Word spread in seconds in the bubble
Anyway my dad and I were home alone
And both walked around the block
To see what all the hype was about
As soon as we rounded the corner
The crowd was visible, as was the police tape
I knew the house quite well
I used to babysit for the family who lived there
And had moved out a year or so before
I had no clue who had moved in
And how closely connected I would be
To the tragedy that occurred hours earlier
A suicide, maybe a murder
Was word on the streets
Not too unfamiliar
It was a rental house
A few years back, another rental
Directly behind our house
A woman known affectionately
In the 'hood as "the crazy lady"
Because she always thru out cool stuff
Like fully new, unused stuff
We loved trash can shopping
Behind her house
Anyway this lady, married, just had a baby
One night saw car lights thru her window
As the word on the street went
She killed herself and the baby
Allegedly thinking someone was after them
It was all the hype, no one knew them
And the 'parkies' as they were called
Loved the goss -- especially about things unknown
The house remained vacant for a year
Then was torn down, rebuilt, and sold
We returned home, pretty much unfazed
Unfazed compared to what soon was clear
Not two hours later, we were all home
My mom came and told us something happened
A VP at my dad's company is coming over
And we must stay upstairs and out of the way
Moments later the front door opened
The 3 brothers Taylor of course
Were peaking down, out of sight
At the entry hall, dying 2 know
My dad entered with a familiar man
A man way too familiar, to just be a work guy
Clutching a framed picture, beyond tears
It hit me, like a ton of bricks how I knew this man
I had babysat for his 2 kids the summer before
2 beautiful, crazy energetic kids at his condo
He was divorced and had them for the summer
Hired me to watch them while he worked days
All summer long I spent with them, a boy & girl
The boy was about 8 or 9, the girl 6 or 7
It was one of the most fun summers of my life
Not only because of the abundance of cash
In my young, never full pocket
But we would have so much fun
Everyday stuck in the condo
Doing practically nothing
Hours and hours of fun
Still the details were fuzzy as hell
And with my parents remained that way
For quite some time
Bits and pieces being leaked out
Over the next few days
The house around the corner
His ex-wife had rented
It was he who came to pick up the kids
That awful day in July where we all gathered
He who called 911 pleading, crying hysterically
Found his son first murdered, cuts from a knife
Unsure where his ex-wife and daughter were
How exactly the aftermath played out
Is still a mystery, and rightfully so I think now
Later the police found his ex-wife and daughter
Both dead from knife lacerations
Apparently blood was tracked all thru the home
According to the police chief, in the news paper
University Park averages 2-3 homicides a year
We found out -- much to all of the neighbors shock
This was the first of '97 lil' chiefy was quoted saying
How fucking insensitive I thought then, and now
Although he followed that up with a quote about
What a tragedy 4 all, UP hadn't seen anything like this b4
The Dallas Coroner ruled it a double murder-suicide
Due to "multiple sharp-force injuries"
My parents hid all the press, we couldn't watch TV
But I ended up finding it all eventually, some yrs later
In hindsight, I wish I hadn't read so much detail
Half a dozen suicide notes found all over the house
Transcripts of the 911 call, descriptions of the scene
Horrific, awful details no one should know
Especially someone close to those involved
The mourning father spent a lot of time at our house
Over the next week or so, the kids upstairs always
The adults downstairs doing god knows what
However even as a young kid, barely double digits
I could feel the horrible, dark, sad energy in the house
That never seemed to leave forever after
Not that future events within the family didn't help
To add to that potently awful feeling
Even friends commented about my house having
I was not allowed to go to the funeral, my moms orders
I was told seeing me was a constant reminder of the kids
The kids alive, happy, on and on so I did not go
Something to this day I often wonder if I had
Would I still be so immersed in this 10 year old incident
It took me years after when I'd go up to the office
To be able to go into my dad's colleague's office & say hello
I didn't want to trigger him or make him sadder than he already must be
I still think about him almost daily, the kids faces remain in my brain forever
Images so clear its as if it's their actual pictures are in front of me
I wonder what would have happened to them, what they would have become
They'd be out of high school now; moving onward and upward I'm sure
I think of their father equally often, so curious about how he is doing
My dad is a very stoic unemotional man -- u pick ur touchy topics with him
I think I recall years ago bringing up the subject and heard he was engaged
Trying to start over a new, I imagined
Since my dad's interest in the company were dissolved
And I doubt, but don't know, if he still keeps in touch
Nor would I dare bring this up -- I already have enough 2 struggle thru w/ him
But I have faith and hope that my powerful, positive thoughts
I'm constantly sending his way reach him successfully
And that he's has nothing but the best things in life
Going on for him now, as I know he'll never forget
That hot muggy July afternoon
And his two beautiful babies
Gone now forever
Sending out PEACE & LIGHT to all tonight...
August 19, 2006
paris
forgot to mention
i got a pre-release
of the "paris" cd
paris hiltons release
due out august 22
11 tracks
good stuff
debatable
yes
pro tools
scott sorbin
lots of factors
but seriously
this chicks cd
worth checking out
seriously
i hate her "rep"
in the industry
met her b4
no comments
on that
it's jaded
but her tracks
all worthwhile
the hieress term
is so null and void
she's a self maid
millionare now
yes she had a boot up
her family's money
and all the other shizz
but still
she did it
brilliant
yes
in some form
check out "paris"
due out august22
i can't believe i'm saying this
but it's woth a buy
and a listen
i got a pre-release
of the "paris" cd
paris hiltons release
due out august 22
11 tracks
good stuff
debatable
yes
pro tools
scott sorbin
lots of factors
but seriously
this chicks cd
worth checking out
seriously
i hate her "rep"
in the industry
met her b4
no comments
on that
it's jaded
but her tracks
all worthwhile
the hieress term
is so null and void
she's a self maid
millionare now
yes she had a boot up
her family's money
and all the other shizz
but still
she did it
brilliant
yes
in some form
check out "paris"
due out august22
i can't believe i'm saying this
but it's woth a buy
and a listen
10 year old case
jon bennete
could mispell
probally did
the "killer"
found
he looks
like a homo
2 me
at the same
time like a
freak
pedofile
2 da max
i'm confused
something is
a miss here
something
we are not hearing
i remember this case
back when i was
14 years of age
like it was yesterday
enough with the coverage
of the "psyudo truth"
wait until the facts
come 2 be
as the will
hopefully
america
justice
maybe not
oj got off
so did mj
lets wait
and see
a quote from
the little girls
father is all i have
to leave u with
hope
peace
faith
love
all good things
as gk said
good friday 2 u all
“I want to have only very limited comment on today’s arrest because I feel it is extremely important to not only let the justice system operate to its conclusion in an orderly manner, but also to avoid feeding the type of media speculation that my wife and I were subjected to for so many years…the investigation of the individual arrested today in connection with JonBenet’s death was discussed with Patsy and me by the Boulder district attorney’s office prior to Patsy’s death in June. So Patsy was aware that authorities were close to making an arrest in the case and had she lived to see this day, would no doubt have been as pleased as I am with today’s development almost 10 years after our daughter’s murder.”
could mispell
probally did
the "killer"
found
he looks
like a homo
2 me
at the same
time like a
freak
pedofile
2 da max
i'm confused
something is
a miss here
something
we are not hearing
i remember this case
back when i was
14 years of age
like it was yesterday
enough with the coverage
of the "psyudo truth"
wait until the facts
come 2 be
as the will
hopefully
america
justice
maybe not
oj got off
so did mj
lets wait
and see
a quote from
the little girls
father is all i have
to leave u with
hope
peace
faith
love
all good things
as gk said
good friday 2 u all
“I want to have only very limited comment on today’s arrest because I feel it is extremely important to not only let the justice system operate to its conclusion in an orderly manner, but also to avoid feeding the type of media speculation that my wife and I were subjected to for so many years…the investigation of the individual arrested today in connection with JonBenet’s death was discussed with Patsy and me by the Boulder district attorney’s office prior to Patsy’s death in June. So Patsy was aware that authorities were close to making an arrest in the case and had she lived to see this day, would no doubt have been as pleased as I am with today’s development almost 10 years after our daughter’s murder.”
August 15, 2006
WEEDS
forgot to mention
i totally got hooked up
with the first 5 eps
of weeds season 2
on dvd from showtime
if you didn't watch season 1
run don't walk to blockbuster
or netflix or itunes or wh8ver
and check out this brilliant
clever, charming cast
in this amazing scripted show
so entertaining
mary louise parker shines
subscribe to showtime
buy the eps on itunes
do something
see this show
season 2
here we go
all i can say is
i'm not telling....
i totally got hooked up
with the first 5 eps
of weeds season 2
on dvd from showtime
if you didn't watch season 1
run don't walk to blockbuster
or netflix or itunes or wh8ver
and check out this brilliant
clever, charming cast
in this amazing scripted show
so entertaining
mary louise parker shines
subscribe to showtime
buy the eps on itunes
do something
see this show
season 2
here we go
all i can say is
i'm not telling....
how big is our appetite 4 voyeurism
ok here we go
reality tv
i'm on the attack
it's crap
addictive
perhaps
but crap
all the same
there i said it
i will admit
i've fallen victim
time and time again
real world was da original
and that show moved mountains
4 mtv, aids, gays, 20-somethings
yea and there have been others
the brady show
i was hooked on like crack
adrian and peter brady
like oil and water
those 2 were
seemed to have worked out
4 them
of course i do not know this
as am over 3 months tv free
clean and sober i am
from this addiction
to compulsively view
other's "reality"
i decided to give it up
and start living my own
reality
4 real
don't get me wrong
i still watch shit
pull favors
watch dvd screeners
and thank god
4 the invention
called youtube
speaking of which
i must admit
i had a relapse
briefly
with janice dickinson
what a train wreck
i love, love her
but i'm back on track
i figured she'll crash
and burn
i'll read about it
maybe catch the highlights real
but i do not need to watch
every step of the way
big brother 4 or 7 uk
pete everyone loved
with ticks and turrets
and a graphic past
now being thrown
all over the boob tube
not 2 mention the chicks
from that show
if i see one more bb girl
and her titties
i'm going to scream
not to mention the trash
they find for flavor of love
and americas next top model
all with histories
each one more tragic
than the last
reality tv has become competitive
are you f*cking kidding me
girls going all out
gays acting a fool
all for 15 seconds of fame
and the chance to date
some hot "celeb of the moment"
ala laguna beach
those rich f^ck ups
seem 2 have mastered that art
ok off the soap box i come
but seriously
what is wrong with us
have we sunk that low
turn off the god damn tv
and go do something
create your own reality
i swear u will find it
100x more fulfilling
than ur fake reality tv fix
the latest craze
couch potato heroin
i'm calling it
now go
do
be
act
ps - whatever you do -- DON'T FORGET to come back, and check my website. for further exploits into my reality, of course!
reality tv
i'm on the attack
it's crap
addictive
perhaps
but crap
all the same
there i said it
i will admit
i've fallen victim
time and time again
real world was da original
and that show moved mountains
4 mtv, aids, gays, 20-somethings
yea and there have been others
the brady show
i was hooked on like crack
adrian and peter brady
like oil and water
those 2 were
seemed to have worked out
4 them
of course i do not know this
as am over 3 months tv free
clean and sober i am
from this addiction
to compulsively view
other's "reality"
i decided to give it up
and start living my own
reality
4 real
don't get me wrong
i still watch shit
pull favors
watch dvd screeners
and thank god
4 the invention
called youtube
speaking of which
i must admit
i had a relapse
briefly
with janice dickinson
what a train wreck
i love, love her
but i'm back on track
i figured she'll crash
and burn
i'll read about it
maybe catch the highlights real
but i do not need to watch
every step of the way
big brother 4 or 7 uk
pete everyone loved
with ticks and turrets
and a graphic past
now being thrown
all over the boob tube
not 2 mention the chicks
from that show
if i see one more bb girl
and her titties
i'm going to scream
not to mention the trash
they find for flavor of love
and americas next top model
all with histories
each one more tragic
than the last
reality tv has become competitive
are you f*cking kidding me
girls going all out
gays acting a fool
all for 15 seconds of fame
and the chance to date
some hot "celeb of the moment"
ala laguna beach
those rich f^ck ups
seem 2 have mastered that art
ok off the soap box i come
but seriously
what is wrong with us
have we sunk that low
turn off the god damn tv
and go do something
create your own reality
i swear u will find it
100x more fulfilling
than ur fake reality tv fix
the latest craze
couch potato heroin
i'm calling it
now go
do
be
act
ps - whatever you do -- DON'T FORGET to come back, and check my website. for further exploits into my reality, of course!
August 13, 2006
austin memories
scott was a neighbor
at the metropolis
austin, south austin
live across the
courtyard of courtyards
his roommate pete
i think was his name
was a lover of the ladies
not that scott wasn't
but scott got it
his origin dallas
modest mouse fan
pot head
but deeper thought
was all about scott
we went 2 the
quinten t film festival
together
he got it
we used to start
many a morning together
getting baked
and listening
2 awesome tunes
and coffee
can't forget that
what a way
2 start the day
with this super
human being
scott
something about
the name
holds power for me
maybe it's my uncle
god rest his soul
my namesake
but scotts'
in my life
are all powerful
all meaning
scott moved out
sometime during
my stay @ da met
the crazy eclectic trap
that complex was
pete stayed
with a cat
but after he left
it was all gone
the magic
the palpable moments
him and i
he got it
i wanted 2
get it
i remember
early on
seeing him
@ stubbs
an austin staple
at a mm concert
back in the day
b4 they became
known for that
1 tract mtv
overplayed
2 da max
after that
we were bonded
somewhat
somehow
we both got it
words weren't
necessary
he lived next
door 2 thomas
the pot dude
whose kid i
babysat
in exchange
4 weed
back in da day
wow times have
changed
he was layed back
relaxed; so cool
our morning coffees'
and music sessions
with the bong
of course
were meaningful
to me
still 2 this day
scott l
wherever u are
hit a brotha up
u r awesome kid
and always part
of this kids crew
4 ever young
u know who u are
here's 2 hoping
all is good
w/ u as is w/ me
love and peace
at the metropolis
austin, south austin
live across the
courtyard of courtyards
his roommate pete
i think was his name
was a lover of the ladies
not that scott wasn't
but scott got it
his origin dallas
modest mouse fan
pot head
but deeper thought
was all about scott
we went 2 the
quinten t film festival
together
he got it
we used to start
many a morning together
getting baked
and listening
2 awesome tunes
and coffee
can't forget that
what a way
2 start the day
with this super
human being
scott
something about
the name
holds power for me
maybe it's my uncle
god rest his soul
my namesake
but scotts'
in my life
are all powerful
all meaning
scott moved out
sometime during
my stay @ da met
the crazy eclectic trap
that complex was
pete stayed
with a cat
but after he left
it was all gone
the magic
the palpable moments
him and i
he got it
i wanted 2
get it
i remember
early on
seeing him
@ stubbs
an austin staple
at a mm concert
back in the day
b4 they became
known for that
1 tract mtv
overplayed
2 da max
after that
we were bonded
somewhat
somehow
we both got it
words weren't
necessary
he lived next
door 2 thomas
the pot dude
whose kid i
babysat
in exchange
4 weed
back in da day
wow times have
changed
he was layed back
relaxed; so cool
our morning coffees'
and music sessions
with the bong
of course
were meaningful
to me
still 2 this day
scott l
wherever u are
hit a brotha up
u r awesome kid
and always part
of this kids crew
4 ever young
u know who u are
here's 2 hoping
all is good
w/ u as is w/ me
love and peace
hypcrite named trip
queer theory
according to
david trip
is the rejection
of all identity
isn't queer
an identity
that is my
question
4 u all
who falls into
this neat new
category we
call queer
this safe
sane place
where the
objectified
can call home
gays
lesbos
bis
tris
trans
inters
drags
fags
dls
closets
that's my
? 4 u all
trip didn't like it
neither did
the angry
short haired
overly aggro
dyke sitting
across da room
from me
who is against
equal rights
gay marriage
what the fuck
i wanted 2 scream
at this crazy biach
as she debated me
saying she wouldn't
get into this in front
of the whole class
then why start it
twat
the victims of 911
their families
the str8 ones
received a settlement
the "gay" ones
received nothing
is that justice
is that what ur against
man hating hoop wearing
freak of nature
she read a passage
from the text
"queer theory"
about a str8 prof
at some university
in god knows where
teaching queer theory
saying fuck him
he is not queer
he has no right
2 be doing so
divorce his wife
live the queer life
then he can speak
what the fuck
i fumed inside
at her biased ways
is this not
what we r fighting
against?
the oppression
of the "str8 man"
equal rights
equality
2 be seen
as "same"
binary opposition
i think trip called it
in his pseudo intellectual
sycophant rant
now i know
why people say
he's a self absorbed
egotistical closed minded
prick
i think i will take another
class with this trip
as i like a challenge
and frankly like to stir shit up
with this motherfucker
who cannot be stirred
bring it on brotha
oh yea
and ur like 60
time to cut off
that pony tail
left over
from the hippy
days of yonder
no more
this fag
is done
ranting
and
raving
4 today
according to
david trip
is the rejection
of all identity
isn't queer
an identity
that is my
question
4 u all
who falls into
this neat new
category we
call queer
this safe
sane place
where the
objectified
can call home
gays
lesbos
bis
tris
trans
inters
drags
fags
dls
closets
that's my
? 4 u all
trip didn't like it
neither did
the angry
short haired
overly aggro
dyke sitting
across da room
from me
who is against
equal rights
gay marriage
what the fuck
i wanted 2 scream
at this crazy biach
as she debated me
saying she wouldn't
get into this in front
of the whole class
then why start it
twat
the victims of 911
their families
the str8 ones
received a settlement
the "gay" ones
received nothing
is that justice
is that what ur against
man hating hoop wearing
freak of nature
she read a passage
from the text
"queer theory"
about a str8 prof
at some university
in god knows where
teaching queer theory
saying fuck him
he is not queer
he has no right
2 be doing so
divorce his wife
live the queer life
then he can speak
what the fuck
i fumed inside
at her biased ways
is this not
what we r fighting
against?
the oppression
of the "str8 man"
equal rights
equality
2 be seen
as "same"
binary opposition
i think trip called it
in his pseudo intellectual
sycophant rant
now i know
why people say
he's a self absorbed
egotistical closed minded
prick
i think i will take another
class with this trip
as i like a challenge
and frankly like to stir shit up
with this motherfucker
who cannot be stirred
bring it on brotha
oh yea
and ur like 60
time to cut off
that pony tail
left over
from the hippy
days of yonder
no more
this fag
is done
ranting
and
raving
4 today
August 11, 2006
August 8, 2006
communication
why is communication
somtimes so difficult
looking people in the eye
and processing what they say
really listening
finding intrest
is hard at times
if you deny this
you are a liar
and you suck
no to be 4 tha reals
it's inate in us all
to say "that's interesting"
not meaning it
but a desperate attempt
to validate what someone
just said 2 u while u
didn't even listen
hearing and listening
2 differnt fields 4 sure
my new favorite band
jump, little children
i listen to their songs
i hear the lyrics
powerful
palpable
or popable
as rosie mis-understood me
back in the day
thought i was saying her turth
one could pop as superficial
funny how we read what we want to
see what we want to see
reality is such a funny thing
as we all experience
what we want to
out of any happening
just a rant
from me
bias ya'll!
ps - i'm in love right now with janice dickingson's oxygen show
what a train wreck -- diva -- persona that biach is! check it out
on TV or youtube or bittorrent
just see the shit
and little miss sunshine the film
ok now i'm out
somtimes so difficult
looking people in the eye
and processing what they say
really listening
finding intrest
is hard at times
if you deny this
you are a liar
and you suck
no to be 4 tha reals
it's inate in us all
to say "that's interesting"
not meaning it
but a desperate attempt
to validate what someone
just said 2 u while u
didn't even listen
hearing and listening
2 differnt fields 4 sure
my new favorite band
jump, little children
i listen to their songs
i hear the lyrics
powerful
palpable
or popable
as rosie mis-understood me
back in the day
thought i was saying her turth
one could pop as superficial
funny how we read what we want to
see what we want to see
reality is such a funny thing
as we all experience
what we want to
out of any happening
just a rant
from me
bias ya'll!
ps - i'm in love right now with janice dickingson's oxygen show
what a train wreck -- diva -- persona that biach is! check it out
on TV or youtube or bittorrent
just see the shit
and little miss sunshine the film
ok now i'm out
little miss sunshine
run don't walk
2 c the film
hillarious
genius
cult classic
4 sure
u must
check it out!
also check this out
from details mag
zac and kelly
back together
god the 90s
were great!
2 c the film
hillarious
genius
cult classic
4 sure
u must
check it out!
also check this out
from details mag
zac and kelly
back together
god the 90s
were great!
August 7, 2006
why you should wear a bike helmet
today on the way home
i tried to think of any excuse
to cancel my personal trainer today
i simply did not want to work out
every fiber of my being said HELL NO
i got home at fifteen minutes b4
i had to jump on the bike
for the 2.5 mile ride
to my trainer's house
i obviously had no excuse
she sees right thru me
unfortunatly
so i'm riding my usual route
not even half a mile from my house
i notice a white jeep grand cheroke
trying to run a stop sign
i stop to avoid him
he stops suddenly
i proceed across the intersection
and just then BAM!
the mother fucker hit me
i kid you not -- i got hit by a car
granted it wasn't a high speed collision
but still i was hit by a mofo car
and taken down to the ground
if u know me u know i've waited for this day my entire life
hello lawsuit!
he rolls down his window
and is extremely appologetic
he reaches in his back pocket
and tries to give me money
cotinuing to appologize profusly
in what must have been a rusian accent
i noticed the liscence plate on the front of his car
on the bumper that moments ago had collided with me
the thought of getting the number entered my head
then i don't know what came over me
but i found myself saying
"no man, it's cool. keep your money"
as i rode away looked over my shoulder
and said "today was ur lucky day...slow it down"
and rode away -- i fuckin' rode away
don't know why or what drove me at that moment
but it was truly an out of body experience
a few blocks later i saw a dude
in a life size elmo costume
walking down the street
no point other than
another oddity
thought i'd share
monday august 2, 2006
the day drama got hit by a car
who would have thunk it?
i tried to think of any excuse
to cancel my personal trainer today
i simply did not want to work out
every fiber of my being said HELL NO
i got home at fifteen minutes b4
i had to jump on the bike
for the 2.5 mile ride
to my trainer's house
i obviously had no excuse
she sees right thru me
unfortunatly
so i'm riding my usual route
not even half a mile from my house
i notice a white jeep grand cheroke
trying to run a stop sign
i stop to avoid him
he stops suddenly
i proceed across the intersection
and just then BAM!
the mother fucker hit me
i kid you not -- i got hit by a car
granted it wasn't a high speed collision
but still i was hit by a mofo car
and taken down to the ground
if u know me u know i've waited for this day my entire life
hello lawsuit!
he rolls down his window
and is extremely appologetic
he reaches in his back pocket
and tries to give me money
cotinuing to appologize profusly
in what must have been a rusian accent
i noticed the liscence plate on the front of his car
on the bumper that moments ago had collided with me
the thought of getting the number entered my head
then i don't know what came over me
but i found myself saying
"no man, it's cool. keep your money"
as i rode away looked over my shoulder
and said "today was ur lucky day...slow it down"
and rode away -- i fuckin' rode away
don't know why or what drove me at that moment
but it was truly an out of body experience
a few blocks later i saw a dude
in a life size elmo costume
walking down the street
no point other than
another oddity
thought i'd share
monday august 2, 2006
the day drama got hit by a car
who would have thunk it?
August 6, 2006
madonna
always a becon of light
2 me it shines bright
sunday night in rome
so they say, it seems 2 b true
a picture says 1000 words...
peace in the middle east...
2 me it shines bright
sunday night in rome
so they say, it seems 2 b true
a picture says 1000 words...
peace in the middle east...
August 5, 2006
re: hail to the cheifs
my professor harvey mindess
brought humor to the dull
and dreary world of psychology
and published that little ditty
in the American Psychologist of 05/75
it's in his book 'makers of psychology'
funny little man
full of stories
and so much insight
knew jung and rodgers too
one his pupil, one gave him tools
to deal with a current situation
he was facing as a young lad
w/ his newborn daughter in Zurich
while in a pickle
so much i can learn from this man
who brought humor to the field
my god -- a matching of the universes
for me today in a random workshop
i put the poem on the site
because i find it hillarious
on many levels
hopefully just about anyone
with psychology 1
can get the gist
and chuckle as i did
along with this funny master
of the field we call
psychotherapy
off to see an old friend
i haven't seen in ages
a glass of wine
some cheer
then 2 bed
4 this punk
got 2 wake up in the morn'
and spend another day
with the funny little man
peace ya'll
brought humor to the dull
and dreary world of psychology
and published that little ditty
in the American Psychologist of 05/75
it's in his book 'makers of psychology'
funny little man
full of stories
and so much insight
knew jung and rodgers too
one his pupil, one gave him tools
to deal with a current situation
he was facing as a young lad
w/ his newborn daughter in Zurich
while in a pickle
so much i can learn from this man
who brought humor to the field
my god -- a matching of the universes
for me today in a random workshop
i put the poem on the site
because i find it hillarious
on many levels
hopefully just about anyone
with psychology 1
can get the gist
and chuckle as i did
along with this funny master
of the field we call
psychotherapy
off to see an old friend
i haven't seen in ages
a glass of wine
some cheer
then 2 bed
4 this punk
got 2 wake up in the morn'
and spend another day
with the funny little man
peace ya'll
HAIL TO THE CHIEFS
Come listen colleagues, while I relate
A story that we can celebrate;
It all began with Sigmund Freud,
A man who thoroughly annoyed
The doctors of his time and place
Because he told them to their face
That all their patients, nervous wrecks,
Were suffering from screwed-up sex.
Instead of chasing cute young yummies,
Men were dreaming of their mommies,
And women, picking up the fad,
Were making plays for dear old dad.
So though it sounds like Greek to us,
Freud said, "Zeir problem iss Oedipus!"
"I'll cure zem," he vowed "And to sveeten ze bargain,
I'll srow in zum high-cless fency jargon."
Repression, regression, reaction formation,
Denial, avoidance, and rationalization,
Projection, undoing, and compensation,
Acting out and sublimation:
If it weren't for Freud, where would we be,
When it comes to talking about you and me?
And then along came C.G. Jung,
Whose sensibilities were stoong
To the very core by people's problems,
Because he believed they were caused by goblins
And other strange creatures whose eerie screams
Resounded through nightmarish dreams
In which ancient gods and demons battled
Until the dreamer's brains were rattled.
"To explain it," said Jung, sitting back on his haunches
"I sink I'll invent ze collective unconscious.
I know my momma vill be overchoyed
If I can manetch to top old Frued."
No sooner said, of course, than done,
And then he added, one by one,
The thoughts that were to make us sure
That he was deep, or at least obscure.
Anima, animus, shadow, and Self,
The fairy realm of witch and elf,
Introvert, extrovert, archetype:
For terms like these the world was ripe,
And riper it grows and that's no maybe-
We've really come a long way, baby!
Meanwhile, on the ranch, our own Carl Rodgers
Had devised a system by which old codgers
And young snippets too could gain relief
Without any odd European belief
In archetypes or Oedipus--
In other worlds, with little fuss,
Less muss, no depth, and far fewer riddles,
We all could become as fit as fiddles.
Carl called his therapy nondirective,
Then directed to his students to be reflective.
"Not in terms of thinking," he told his hearers,
"But in terms of acting like plate-glass mirrors."
Repeat, repeat what your clients say;
That's counseling in the Rogerian way.
It was later found, in a study by Garrett,
That Rogers was really a green-breasted parrot.
Nevertheless, to his great credit,
He gave us easy words to edit.
Client-centered, open, and trust,
Becoming, process, is all we must
Learn to earn (and it's not hard)
Carl Roger's positive regard.
That brings us round to Frederick Perls,
Whose penchant for pinching the bottoms of girls,
Made lechery a therapeutic style
And encouraged those shrinks who know what's worthwhile
To develop it into an art of their own,
An art that the world had never known--
For where has there ever before been a doctor
Who charged his patient while he foctor?
"I do my sing and you do yours!"
Snickered Perls, addressing the freaked-out boors
Who sat at his feet, devouring blintzes.
"Loose your mind and come to your sintzes!"
They nodded, they swayed in perfect rhythm
To let him known that they were with'm.
"Effery act iss natural, including sodomy!"
They rose in unison, chanting "Autonomy!"
Despite nasty rumors, Fritz was not too far gone
To engage in the game of inventing jar-gone.
He called his treatment style Gestalt
And won the prize (not by default)
For being the most authentic conner
In the here and now -- which is quite an honor.
Finally, though, we have B. F. Skinner.
No doubt about it; he's the winner.
His cunning methods of shaping behavior
Have qualified Him as the latest Saviour.
While He explains human motivation
As well as a pigeon explains The Creation,
He has won the unqualified endorsement
Of S*C*I*E*N*C*E* for naming reinforcement.
The be-all and end-all of everything--
What Kant might have called Das Dingaling-
An-Sich. Besides which, He wrote Walden Two,
Which gives Him edge over me and you.
So even if He cannot tolerate
To see a patient, we nominate
Him titular head of Behavior Mod,
The therapy that's next to God.
Desensitization and reconditioning,
Operant, classical, now He's petitioning
To be anointed in a hurry.
But never fear; we need not worry.
When Skinner is crowned King of Dreams (or REMS),
We'll all be rewarded with M&Ms.
There are others, of course, but these are our heroes,
And while some may say they're a bunch of zeroes,
I submit that their therapeutic preachments
Deserve neither censure nor impeachments.
Man (and woman) kind might not be worse off without them,
But the most magnificent thing about them
Is the fact that they labored without misgiving
So that you and I could make a living.
A story that we can celebrate;
It all began with Sigmund Freud,
A man who thoroughly annoyed
The doctors of his time and place
Because he told them to their face
That all their patients, nervous wrecks,
Were suffering from screwed-up sex.
Instead of chasing cute young yummies,
Men were dreaming of their mommies,
And women, picking up the fad,
Were making plays for dear old dad.
So though it sounds like Greek to us,
Freud said, "Zeir problem iss Oedipus!"
"I'll cure zem," he vowed "And to sveeten ze bargain,
I'll srow in zum high-cless fency jargon."
Repression, regression, reaction formation,
Denial, avoidance, and rationalization,
Projection, undoing, and compensation,
Acting out and sublimation:
If it weren't for Freud, where would we be,
When it comes to talking about you and me?
And then along came C.G. Jung,
Whose sensibilities were stoong
To the very core by people's problems,
Because he believed they were caused by goblins
And other strange creatures whose eerie screams
Resounded through nightmarish dreams
In which ancient gods and demons battled
Until the dreamer's brains were rattled.
"To explain it," said Jung, sitting back on his haunches
"I sink I'll invent ze collective unconscious.
I know my momma vill be overchoyed
If I can manetch to top old Frued."
No sooner said, of course, than done,
And then he added, one by one,
The thoughts that were to make us sure
That he was deep, or at least obscure.
Anima, animus, shadow, and Self,
The fairy realm of witch and elf,
Introvert, extrovert, archetype:
For terms like these the world was ripe,
And riper it grows and that's no maybe-
We've really come a long way, baby!
Meanwhile, on the ranch, our own Carl Rodgers
Had devised a system by which old codgers
And young snippets too could gain relief
Without any odd European belief
In archetypes or Oedipus--
In other worlds, with little fuss,
Less muss, no depth, and far fewer riddles,
We all could become as fit as fiddles.
Carl called his therapy nondirective,
Then directed to his students to be reflective.
"Not in terms of thinking," he told his hearers,
"But in terms of acting like plate-glass mirrors."
Repeat, repeat what your clients say;
That's counseling in the Rogerian way.
It was later found, in a study by Garrett,
That Rogers was really a green-breasted parrot.
Nevertheless, to his great credit,
He gave us easy words to edit.
Client-centered, open, and trust,
Becoming, process, is all we must
Learn to earn (and it's not hard)
Carl Roger's positive regard.
That brings us round to Frederick Perls,
Whose penchant for pinching the bottoms of girls,
Made lechery a therapeutic style
And encouraged those shrinks who know what's worthwhile
To develop it into an art of their own,
An art that the world had never known--
For where has there ever before been a doctor
Who charged his patient while he foctor?
"I do my sing and you do yours!"
Snickered Perls, addressing the freaked-out boors
Who sat at his feet, devouring blintzes.
"Loose your mind and come to your sintzes!"
They nodded, they swayed in perfect rhythm
To let him known that they were with'm.
"Effery act iss natural, including sodomy!"
They rose in unison, chanting "Autonomy!"
Despite nasty rumors, Fritz was not too far gone
To engage in the game of inventing jar-gone.
He called his treatment style Gestalt
And won the prize (not by default)
For being the most authentic conner
In the here and now -- which is quite an honor.
Finally, though, we have B. F. Skinner.
No doubt about it; he's the winner.
His cunning methods of shaping behavior
Have qualified Him as the latest Saviour.
While He explains human motivation
As well as a pigeon explains The Creation,
He has won the unqualified endorsement
Of S*C*I*E*N*C*E* for naming reinforcement.
The be-all and end-all of everything--
What Kant might have called Das Dingaling-
An-Sich. Besides which, He wrote Walden Two,
Which gives Him edge over me and you.
So even if He cannot tolerate
To see a patient, we nominate
Him titular head of Behavior Mod,
The therapy that's next to God.
Desensitization and reconditioning,
Operant, classical, now He's petitioning
To be anointed in a hurry.
But never fear; we need not worry.
When Skinner is crowned King of Dreams (or REMS),
We'll all be rewarded with M&Ms.
There are others, of course, but these are our heroes,
And while some may say they're a bunch of zeroes,
I submit that their therapeutic preachments
Deserve neither censure nor impeachments.
Man (and woman) kind might not be worse off without them,
But the most magnificent thing about them
Is the fact that they labored without misgiving
So that you and I could make a living.
August 3, 2006
hold on
i've been asked this question
in email and person
more times than enough
and it's taken me this long
to come up with some responce
people are calling for
unconditional ceasefire now
as u can sign a petetion
on stopwar.org.uk
as i did
while blair and bush
"allow" the attacks to go on
"until we have a plan"
this is an epedimic
people
fight fire with fire
since when has this worked
but its hard to say
immediate ceasefire
do as we say
not as we do?
hypocracy at its finest
in this democracy
we supposidly are fighting
to spread such freedom
around the world
who says we are right
who says i am right
no one
but it is our responsibility
to take notice
to be informed
to take a stand
for what we believe in
turning a blind eye
is no longer a choice
below is a flick i found on u tube
what a brilliant invention that
not for the weak at heart
however, powerful and punching
all at the same time...
be brave
watch it
stay informed
sending all the love i can muster
into the universe with this
my little website, blog
i believe in the light
i have hope
and faith
light beats dark
without fail
time and time
again
hold on
peace to all ya'll
From Maya Angelou:
“History, despite its wrenching pain,
cannot be unlived, but if faced with courage,
need not be lived again.”
in email and person
more times than enough
and it's taken me this long
to come up with some responce
people are calling for
unconditional ceasefire now
as u can sign a petetion
on stopwar.org.uk
as i did
while blair and bush
"allow" the attacks to go on
"until we have a plan"
this is an epedimic
people
fight fire with fire
since when has this worked
but its hard to say
immediate ceasefire
do as we say
not as we do?
hypocracy at its finest
in this democracy
we supposidly are fighting
to spread such freedom
around the world
who says we are right
who says i am right
no one
but it is our responsibility
to take notice
to be informed
to take a stand
for what we believe in
turning a blind eye
is no longer a choice
below is a flick i found on u tube
what a brilliant invention that
not for the weak at heart
however, powerful and punching
all at the same time...
be brave
watch it
stay informed
sending all the love i can muster
into the universe with this
my little website, blog
i believe in the light
i have hope
and faith
light beats dark
without fail
time and time
again
hold on
peace to all ya'll
From Maya Angelou:
“History, despite its wrenching pain,
cannot be unlived, but if faced with courage,
need not be lived again.”
August 2, 2006
no more rehab
just finished
my last
court ordered
class
4 ever
i say that
because
i plan on
having no
more court
ordered classes
evah
i've been typing blogs lately
in a word processor of sorts
takes the fun out of blogging
spell check, grammar check
red underlines
self conscious what?
talked to adam tonight
god it's been a while
every time that kid
drags it all back up
in me
how come i can't quit you
jake said in brokeback
story of my life
lebanon
mel
the state of the world
stirred up by w
and his father's
old cabinet
i'm too far gone
to talk about it
time to call the shrink
and up my meds!
my last
court ordered
class
4 ever
i say that
because
i plan on
having no
more court
ordered classes
evah
i've been typing blogs lately
in a word processor of sorts
takes the fun out of blogging
spell check, grammar check
red underlines
self conscious what?
talked to adam tonight
god it's been a while
every time that kid
drags it all back up
in me
how come i can't quit you
jake said in brokeback
story of my life
lebanon
mel
the state of the world
stirred up by w
and his father's
old cabinet
i'm too far gone
to talk about it
time to call the shrink
and up my meds!
August 1, 2006
gay pimpin'
"you know what molesting is better than getting stabbed in the neck, but molesting still sucks. yea but she got molested everyday. everyday is a real downer."...from the 7/25/06 podcast
i just found this show
the quote
from the 1st 5 min
the show is 2+ hrs
new one every week
seriously where the fuck
have these gays been my whole life?
don't know anything about the show
but i'm an addict
i'm sure they have a website
and u can get the show 4 free
thru itunes (which i have such a love/hate relatoinship with)
this should be a daily radio show
although i hate the radio too
i'm going to see the devil wears prada now...sigh
i just found this show
the quote
from the 1st 5 min
the show is 2+ hrs
new one every week
seriously where the fuck
have these gays been my whole life?
don't know anything about the show
but i'm an addict
i'm sure they have a website
and u can get the show 4 free
thru itunes (which i have such a love/hate relatoinship with)
this should be a daily radio show
although i hate the radio too
i'm going to see the devil wears prada now...sigh
Fwd: my blog + update on bible quote
so i realizedepending on urbrowseror pcor maceveryone c'smy blog differentlypictures on 1 sidemessages on the othermessages across the pagepics at the bottomi heard it allit's all the samei swearfixin' in the worksps update on the bible quote:Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. (1 John 4:8)
from this fag
2 u
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